At 2:00 I left for my lunch break and was really feeling the weight of everything and as I was walking away I felt impressed to pray for everything. I found myself saying, "Jesus, I cast all of this on to you because I know you care about these people and I know you care about me." I was amazed at how I felt Him begin to calm my nerves and my heart. As I continued to talk to Him and rest in His presence at lunch I had a 'knowing' sense that He knew and He really did care.
Someone had said to me that this whole thing wasn't my fault...I understood that but at the same time... felt bad for them. Later as I was relaying the day to my husband on the way home I realized that I was carrying the weight of their stress and the stress of everyone around me. I realized that in taking my feelings and the stress to the Lord, I was doing exactly what He wanted me to do... to cast it all on to Him to take care of. I realized in doing so it was much like the error I found... I found it and then took it to my assistant manager and proceed to put the 'resolving' to those who were able to resolve the situation... Prayer is just like that. You find these things that bother you or stress you out or that worry you... in taking it to Him in prayer, you are taking it to the One who CAN resolve the situation and is more than able to take care of everything. In this particular case at work, once I turned it over to them I couldn't take it back, there was nothing more for me to do because it was in the hands of those in authority over me. Prayer is like that too in that once you give it to the Father, it's in the hands of Him who is authority over you and there's no taking it back, there is nothing more you can do.
Wow... what a concept isn't it? It's just amazing to me because so many times, after I pray for a situation, I take it back and continue to worry about it or try to figure out what else I can to do fix it. Yesterday I realized that when I take it to Him in prayer, everything that concerns me is now in capable hands and He will take care of everything. That's so... freeing and yet at the same time, I admit, it's hard to let go... It's exactly what He wants though. For us to just let go and let Him take care of it. To trust Him with all that concerns us and to rest in the fact that He is more than able to resolve our concerns.
Lord, help me to let go once I've brought it to you. Help me to release my cares to you moment by moment as I need to. Take all these concerns and day to day stresses and resolve them how you see fit. Help me to trust in Your most capable hands and in your love, grace and kindness. You are truly and awesome God. Amen...