You know how God woke Samuel up in the middle of the night to speak to him? It probably wasn't a real 'convenient' time in Samuel's mind. I'm sure to some... to be awakened in the night by the Lord, we would say, "God, can't we discuss this in the morning?!" or maybe some would wake up automatically and be alert and ready to listen. I'm not sure how I would be if that happened to me but I was willing, if that's when the Lord wanted to speak to me about things. Today, however, it wasn't in the middle of the night... no, it was in the middle of the day when the Lord began to speak to me. The middle of a rather frustrating day... the Lord started showing me things that I have been carrying and why. As I started to cry I was asked a question by a co-worker so my focus had to turn from the moment I was in with God to the issue she was dealing with instead. I quickly answered her question and then headed off to the restroom. To be honest, it was one of those times where I was like, "Now Lord? You chose to show me this stuff now?" As I struggled to regain my composure before heading back to my desk I realized once again that the Lord doesn't always go according to our time schedules or when we would like Him to speak to us. He chooses the moment and He chooses the topic.
I have only touched the surface of the issue that He began to reveal to my heart but I know in time... as I'm able to write more on it, I know He will reveal so much to me. I ask for your prayers... pray that my ears would be open to hear His voice when HE chooses to speak. Pray that in those moments I tune in to hear all that He has to say. Pray that He creates the opportunity to not only start but to complete the work in me that He is trying to do... and pray that my spirit remains willing.
Thank you and good night...