Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Before I lay me down to sleep...

I really need to go to bed but just wanted to post a little something first... and addition, if you will, to the word I received on Sunday...

You know how God woke Samuel up in the middle of the night to speak to him? It probably wasn't a real 'convenient' time in Samuel's mind. I'm sure to some... to be awakened in the night by the Lord, we would say, "God, can't we discuss this in the morning?!"  or maybe some would wake up automatically and be alert and ready to listen. I'm not sure how I would be if that happened to me but I was willing, if that's when the Lord wanted to speak to me about things. Today, however, it wasn't in the middle of the night... no, it was in the middle of the day when the Lord began to speak to me. The middle of a rather frustrating day... the Lord started showing me things that I have been carrying and why. As I started to cry I was asked a question by a co-worker so my focus had to turn from the moment I was in with God to the issue she was dealing with instead. I quickly answered her question and then headed off to the restroom. To be honest, it was one of those times where I was like, "Now Lord? You chose to show me this stuff now?" As I struggled to regain my composure before heading back to my desk I realized once again that the Lord doesn't always go according to our time schedules or when we would like Him to speak to us. He chooses the moment and He chooses the topic. 

I have only touched the surface of the issue that He began to reveal to my heart but I know in time... as I'm able to write more on it, I know He will reveal so much to me. I ask for your prayers... pray that my ears would be open to hear His voice when HE chooses to speak. Pray that in those moments I tune in to hear all that He has to say. Pray that He creates the opportunity to not only start but to complete the work in me that He is trying to do... and pray that my spirit remains willing. 

Thank you and good night... 

Bonnelle

2 comments:

Kate said...

I'll keep you in my prayers, Bonnelle. Sometimes, I think that we're better able to focus in the midst of all of those distractions. When I was in high school, I had the privilege of working for a week at a day camp for disadvantaged kids in South Phoenix with the Missionaries of Charity (Mother Teresa's group). I never got so much out of Mass as when I was trying to corral 15 or so little kids and keep them attentive!

If it's something you need to hear, God will make sure that you hear it! :)

B His Girl said...

I have said a prayer for you. Sometimes in order for God to move us to a new place, He wants us to understand some things about where we have been. Trust His leading and His timing. When we know He is talking to us, we tend to lean in more to catch every word. You are poised to hear! Just stay tuned!