Wednesday, September 3, 2008


So... today I found out the disappointing news that I was not selected for the Event Coordinator position. I haven't heard directly from HR yet but I did chat with my friend in the department (she was one of the first interviewers) about it. She said they would probably be contacting me soon. Yes, I was disappointed and all those questions came crashing in for a moment... "Why wasn't I good enough? What was I lacking? Isn't my work and dependability enough?" As I mulled over these questions and more I went for a walk this afternoon to think and pray. At one point my heart cried out, "Why wasn't I chosen" and I heard the whisper of the One who loves me the most, "You were chosen for I have chosen you" and my verse from She Speaks jumped out before me (written above). I heard these words:

"You ARE a chosen woman for I have chosen you. I have chosen you to be My holy daughter. You are Mine. I have chosen you to show others My goodness, love and faithfulness. Just because this one person didn't choose you, always remember that I have chosen you."

His love is enough for me... I know that He has a plan in all of this. I know that the 7 wasn't for me and that stopping was right for me & my family. I know that He has good plans for me and that while this door may have closed, another one will open. I just have to keep watching and waiting for His perfect timing. I'm thankful that He knows what is best for me and He knows what I can handle. 

For now... I will stay in my current job. I will thoroughly enjoy my English class and all that I will learn from it. I will continue to Praise Him for His goodness and His wisdom. I have asked Him to guide and direct my steps according to His plans and purposes for my life so I will trust in His leading because His way is the best way I should take.



Lysa TerKeurst said...

Wow Bonnelle. What great perspectives you have. Keep trusting Him sweet sister.

And I'm trying not to be jealous that you are getting to take an English Comp class. How fun!

When you learn cool things, you simply must share with me.


Kate said...

I'm sorry that you didn't get the job you were hoping for, and I'm glad that you are able to see God working in your life. Knowing that there's a plan is comforting, even if we don't know what that plan is. You are doing the right thing by following God's lead and listening for his voice.

Thanks for stopping by to say hi. Things are pretty good these days for me, but my husband has been suffering a lot of pain for a week and the doctor's haven't managed to figure it out yet. If you could keep him in your prayers I would sure appreciate it.

Anonymous said...

Oh Bonnelle:

I appreciate your God-given peace that only He can give and yet I'm so bummed for you.

Keep believing...