At first I was incredibly overwhelmed and intimidated by all these women I was meeting who seemed to be 'accomplished' or ready to be published. They had been there before and had so much confidence in the calling that's on their lives. I on the other hand am a beginner. I kept asking the Lord, "WHAT am I doing here?" and yet, I knew that He had brought me to this place so He had to have a plan and a purpose in mind. Doesn't He always?
Saturday night... Renee Swope spoke this incredible message on doubt and discouragement. She shared about her own experience with doubting what God had called her to and how He showed her that she needed to turn towards the Light. In the Shadow of the Cross played and I was moved to tears. We then took cards with our doubts and fears and discouragement to the cross and left them there. In exchange, we were given cards with promises on them. My promise is the scripture written above and what stood out to me was that I CAN show others the goodness of God because He has brought me out of darkness and into His marvelous, glorious light. It was so powerful.
What the Lord showed me was that He has called me to write. He has called me to share my story and the experiences I've had. He has called me to tell others of His goodness and grace. He showed me that He will always be there, to be my companion and my guide. He will lead me and He will show me the next step to take... this is the first step.
I'm looking forward... forward to all that God has planned, unfolding before me in His timing.