Tuesday, May 5, 2009

today...

Today is the 11th anniversary of the day our lives changed dramatically... It was 11 years ago today that our youngest child went home to be with Jesus. It's amazing how my mind goes back to that day each year. Today the Comforter, the Holy Spirit, brought back sweet memories of that day.... the moment where I glanced over and saw Gerad making the motions of giving his heart to Jesus... the moment I saw him walk away, hand in hand with Jesus, in a field filled with Daisy's...

How am I doing today? I am feeling... thankful. I am thankful that my other son who has walked through the valley of the shadow of death, has survived Leukemia is now working on going to Turkey on a missions trip in a few weeks. I am thankful that my daughter, even though she's 7 hours away, calls me to tell me the latest stories of her life. They both have gone through so much in their lives and I am thankful that even in the midst of these trials of life... they are good kids and love the Lord. I am thankful that Gerad is safe and sound in Heaven and he's waiting for the day of our arrival. I am thankful that in spite of the loss of a child, the illness of another and the injury of my husband... our marriage is stronger then it was 11 years ago and the Lord has been our Provider every step of the way. I am thankful.... for the Comforter who wipes away all my tears and comforts me with all Hope. And I am thankful once again that even though I don't understand everything I have a Father who knows and understands ALL things. 

To all the Mother's who have lost a child.... may you have a blessed Mother's Day this weekend. May the Comforter fill you with all Hope of what is yet to come... and may you find peace and strength in the arms of the Father who loves you more than anyone else possibly could.

2 comments:

Cheri' said...

Bonnelle, it is wonderful to see your heart so filled with God's comfort and hope. When I look back 11 years ago and remember the pain you were in, yet today you are peaceful and thankful, I can't help but thank God for His workings in your life! You allowed Him to heal you, restore you and comfort you during some very dark days, and it is your obedience to walk with Him through the valley . . . that has brought you to this day! I applaud you Bonnelle! I applaud your heart for God and your diligence to pursue Him no matter what life has thrown at you! Yes, Gerad's mama is a woman of God!

Kate said...

I don't know what to say...I'm sorry that you went through and live with such a loss, and I'm touched by your continued faith and strength, as well as by the way that you reach out to others for whom Mother's Day must still be a raw time in many ways. You have a big heart!