Monday, December 15, 2008


Each day I go to Tammy's blog and I'm amazed... at her strength, at her realness & honesty... I wish at times that I could have had a way to be as vocal and expressive with things that I was feeling in those days & months & years after Gerad's death. I remember journaling afterwards but so many of those entries expressed my frustration with other things going on in my life rather than the grief I was feeling. However, thankfully, by the Grace of God, His Word and the friendships He's brought along the way... I believe He has brought healing to my heart. 

I remember once receiving a card which contained this verse...

2 Corinthians 1:4:
He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. 
When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.

Tonight when I went to post my comment on her blog this came out:

"I understand those moments of not wanting to hurt and yet hurting all over... moments of remembering the good things and then crying over those same memories. I understand the feeling of aloneness that hits in the middle of a crowd of people when you see a child about his age. The peace in knowing he's with Jesus but wanting him here in your arms instead. Grief is a hard process and sometimes it helps that you've been through it before and yet there are other times where it seems like a whole new experience because it's the same but different.

Fortunately... God is the same yesterday, today and forever and His Word is still as true as it was when it was first written 2,000 years ago. His Word says He will never fail you, He will never abandon you and he knows and understands your pain.

I remember the moment when God showed me that He understood my pain... because He lost a son once too...

I pray for a warm blanket of His love to envelope you tonight. I pray for His Grace & Sufficiency to meet you exactly where you need Him most. He holds you in the palm of His hand."

It's interesting... maybe God will use comments like that to continue healing my heart. It's interesting too because as I was writing that out again here I could see each of those moments... right down to the warm blanket. I remember that warm blanket like it was yesterday. 

God is so good isn't He?

1 comment:

Cheri' said...

Yes, God is SO good!

I read your comments on Tammy's blog before I read them here. It was/is obvious that you are writing from deep within your heart when you relate to the loss she is suffering and the grief she is going through.

I remember when you shared about the blanket! Moments like those -- when you're in His Presence -- can be retained within our hearts -- just as if it was yesterday!

Your words to Tammy deeply touched my own heart because I've been missing my mom this Christmas. Thanks for sharing the comfort with which you have been comforted!
It helps! You are helping all of us who read your words!