As I have been pondering on the question Jesus presented to blind Bartimaeus in Mark 10:51:
"What do you want me to do for you?"
As I hear Jesus asking me this same question, first, I start at the surface...
Please provide for us financially to pay for our bills, books, school, food... the things we need.
I hear Him reply with, "I will provide. Remember? I WILL take good care of you."
Then... I go a little deeper...
Please help me with school. Help me continue doing well for Your glory. Help me get through this program well so I can be Your hands and feet.
I hear Him say... "My grace is sufficient for you..."
Then... when I go deeper and really look at the heart of the matter I see my fear and yes... my unbelief.
Lord, I think really and truly... I want you to heal my heart and deliver me from my fear and my unbelief. My fear of bad things happening, my fear of not having enough, my fear of failure, my fear of rejection, my fear of not being enough or being good enough, and my fear of being left out in the cold... even by You. This prayer I read this morning puts it in a nutshell...
"Help me believe in Your sufficiency in every situation."
In any and all things... Help me believe in YOUR sufficiency. Help me to believe that You will ALWAYS provide and You will ALWAYS take good care of me. Help me believe... that Your grace is really all that I need.
Each time Jesus said,
"My grace is all you need. My power works best in [your] weakness."
(2 Corinthians 12:9)
